Not disappointed

by Joel Howard

Questions, many questions

I'm not disappointed

Lessening, not heightening

Still not disappointed

Letting go of loved ones

I'm not turning back

I'm not disappointed

Death of hopes and dreams

Yet I am at rest

Less scope of control for my soul

Yet I am at rest

Quiet outlook, not loud

I'm okay with that

I'm not turning back

I'm not disappointed

Though tears and cries

Clothe me at night

My tears You will wipe

You hear my cry

I'm backing off from the need to belong

To anyone else but You, my God

And though it aches

Like an earthquake

Though like war

It costs so much more

I'm not turning back

I'm not disappointed

I'm not disappointed, God

I thirst for You

More than safety here

I come to You

I'm waiting here

year six