When am I worthy?

When am I worthy?

by Joel Howard

When God is calling me to rest 

the devil does his best

to saturate me with a doubt

to inundate me with evil shouts:

"How could you be acceptable and worthy 

of the affection of God or anyone!" 

When I try to pull back

he strangles me with lack

injects me with a doubt: 

"Get your filthy self out!" 

Sends me on a panic-filled, anxiety-ridden sprint

floundering on my way to anywhere where I can escape him

and even if I stand still and resist the urge to run

he constantly picks away at me until I am undone

"When am I worthy?" I tell God - directly to Him I come

and I hold fast to the King of kings until the answer comes

Resist the devil, submit to God and pray for those I know

God will turn my weeping into dancing before you know!